Standing before the mirror, she gazes into her reflection. Pale skin. Small prickles of hair emerging from her head. There’s a large oval -shaped scar on her neck. She focuses on her eyes–windows to the soul. Staring into them is like falling into a dark bottomless pit. She sees stains of guilt within them. She sees a mind like a grotesque dungeon, a place where thoughts wander blindly like prisoners, wailing at walls of misgiving and despair.
“Who am I?” she asks.
She gets the same answer as always. It comes to her as a hissing whisper in the back of her mind: not Meredith. Meredith is dead…
Wow, it’s been a while since I’ve checked in. Over a month. A lot has been going on since my last post. My journey has not come to an end, however. It has broadened, become more complicated, and increased in pace.
Since my last post an exciting new opportunity has entered my life. I joined the staff of The Dark Sire Journal and became their new Assistant EIC. The Dark Sire publishes Horror, Gothic, Fantasy, and Psychological Realism. For those of you who have read previous posts or visited my YouTube channel, you know how fitting such a journal will be for me. I love tales of monsters, vampires (particularly the disturbing kind; I can do without the sparkling), eerie haunted minds, strange old castles, and so much more. TDS is a place of all my passions. It’s a journal that truly loves horror fiction and allows it to be horror. What do I mean by that? Well, they allow for the blood, the mayhem. They truly want to make your spine tingle when you view the art or fiction featured in one of their issues. It’s refreshing to see this when so often I come across horror magazines that want monsters, as long as they don’t commit any mayhem. They want vampires, as long as they don’t actually draw any blood. Where’s the horror in that? Magazines like TDS are becoming rarer these days, and I hope to help keep this one alive and well.
My goal is to post once per week. In next week’s post I will tell you what I’m learning about developmental editing.
Good news! I was able to make some decent use of the early morning hours. I woke up at five and couldn’t go back to sleep, so I decided to make use of that quiet time to work on a story I’ve been grinding away at for the past couple weeks. The rough draft looks to be more novella length than novel, but maybe the story will expand when I progress to revisions later.
In the meantime, I got a really good idea for a story yesterday on my walk. I will carry on with the rough draft before I go back to revisions of this recently finished project. The working title for my next project: Nightmare Shards. I’m going to have some fun playing with the werewolf myth.
This has been a good week. A lot of great goals have been set and much progress has been made with those goals.
1. I’ve committed to a schedule. This has been very helpful. I’ve consigned much of my writing to 6:30 in the morning, a sacred time, a time when not much is happening to distract me. I even managed to wake up this early every day of the week. Good consistency.
2. I’ve got a lot of works in progress. One is a novel about a man in a religious order who has reached the evening of his life and now confronts his greatest challenge yet: transcendence. Even got a title for it now: The Miracle Morning. My short story “Moon-Frosted Forest” has gone through a few beta-reading rounds; I express thanks to all who helped with that. I definitely have more directions I can take the next draft. As you saw in my previous “Nightmare Shards” post, more story ideas have been showing up when I need them. I started outlining a tale inspired by one of those dream images this morning. A serial killer artist is the subject of the story.
I hope next week I can press onward with the same consistency. I’ll sure give it my best effort. Tune in next week! I’m sure I’ll have some mysteries for us to puzzle over.